It’s ok to be with you while you’re still with her too.

To my dearest Arthur,

Just like the old times, you’re not here by my side. I know you’re also having hard time because of me. I can’t blame you. Its painful to keep remembering that I’m just an option, second choice, second best. Remember what I’m always telling you? I will always understand. I know this will all happen and in spite that you’ve already warned me, i choose to go on and be with you.

It’s like a knife that cuts my heart everytime I see you with her and everytime I do, I have no choice but to close my eyes to keep my heart from sudden pain. I already keep myself contented an the time you can give and not to demand on the same things she receives. I dont know where this could lead us. Despite of all your imperfections, I still wanted to be with you. If only I could steal you from her but I know it’s not right. Everything about us is not right.

It really hurts to love someone like you. I choose someone who can’t evn choose me but still it’s ok. I already accepted the fact that in your heart there’s already someone inside. I shallow my pride, my dignity. I took all of their concerns for granted. I don’t care to what other people may say about me. Slut, bitch, home-breaker, other woman, mistress, husband stealer ----- an adroit in adultery. In spite of all, I choose to believe that someday, maybe someday there will be a chance to make everything normal.

I’m not asking to too much, what I’m up to is just for as little love. I know I cant ever demand and even if im a lover in the shadow of a friend, that abducted your attention ----- a partner you can’t never reveal. I won’t complain if that the only way to still be with you and make everything back to normal between me and you. In reality, I’m the one who choose this fate, choose to play with the deadyly tempting fire. Knbowing that your in love with someone else, I still give my all even this is what I get ----- im the one who will always being left behind. I dont know where thses things could bring us, but whatever it is, im still willing to go on. I know it’s hard and wrong to stay in this type of relationship but it’s also hard to give it up.

Remember, the first time we met? That time, I never wanted to create commotion. All I want is to let you , fell that I always here for you ----- that I can live my life even in those stolen times.

You’re that only one inside my heart, even there are better people that you who could be proud in having me -- I still want you. Even if this is a wrong doing, an immoral thing in the eyes of God and society, it’s ok just to be with you while you’re still with her too.

And dont worry, even if they say I should leave you and let you go, its me who will decide ----- and  I deceide to stay. I know I can make it through as long as you’re here.

I love you, and I will always do ... you keep my heart and love so strong ... so stay and be strong.

Love,

Selene